Tomorrow.
Tomorrow is going to be SO great!
I’m going to wake up early and go for a walk, maybe with my
coffee. Not like an exercise-level speedwalk, no no no – I’m going to breathe
in the fresh air and enjoy the sunrise and be mindful and full of gratitude at
this very phenomenon of self-propulsion. One cannot, certainly, achieve this
with a cigarette in one’s hand, so I will not partake. This may be difficult, but
I’m confident the deep breathing exercises I’ll be doing anyway will help.
I’m going to come home and poach a range-free egg to put on
my mindfully-prepared avocado toast. I will consume this breakfast with loving
gratitude for the nourishment I’ve prepared for myself.
I will be present & engaged with my children while
waiting for the bus. I will listen with enthusiasm to Sam's re-cap of yesterday's Yu-Gi-O game and Anna's re-re-telling of that funny thing her BFF said last week. I will enjoy finding week-expired permission slips and
accept any & all sub-par quiz grades with equanimity & understanding.
Perhaps we’ll bake some cookies for an after-school treat?
I will drive to work in silence or with uplifting music, and
eschew my usual political news.
Oh work is going to be awesome! You should see my Outlook
calendar! I get to meet with my always-charming boss who SO enjoys &
encourages my out-of-the-box BIG PICTURE thinking, and is never dismissive,
thank goodness. I get to walk on the treadmill at lunch reading AWOL and
imagining the canopy, the birds chirping, the soft pine needles beneath my
feet. I get to attend a Webinar on better-utilizing LinkedIn for Sales, which I
just KNOW will be relevant and fascinating and provide all sorts of ideas about
this fresh & dynamic platform. Most importantly, in between I will be
diligently working in three Excel spreadsheets and out of our delightful
Microsoft CRM. I will not once check CNN or MSNBC or HuffPo or even Facebook!
But I will be loving to myself, and if I find it difficult to stay focused, I
will indulge in a TED talk or inspirational video, or maybe just re-read
Desiderata as needed.
I will drive home from work in silence or with calming music,
and eschew my usual political news.
I look forward to cooking something creative & delicious
for my lover from fresh, local, organic ingredients, without that evil
devil-juice Pinot Noir. Cooking without a wine glass in my hand IS within my
abilities to master!
After dinner, we’ll take a restive walk through the
neighborhood to aid in digestion. We’ll discuss wedding plans, household
projects, our lifelong dreams – that sort of stuff.
When we return, I will watch a baseball game with him. I
will be super-present, not check my phone at all, ask relevant & witty
questions and just generally be fascinated with this amazing, American game. It
is only one out of 162 this year, after all!
I’ll enjoy some restful, winding-down-the-day type Yoga. The
kind where you feel you’re being good to yourself, not competitive or super judgmental
about how long you can hold a headstand! Nope – maybe Wednesday. Tomorrow will
be all about good vibes.
I’ll make some tea. Green, with no caffeine, some lemon
& some honey. I’ll lean over the mug as the steam floats up and breathe in
its healing properties, grateful for the moment of peace. I’ll snuggle up in a
blanket and read some Frost – no, I think Eliot. Lovesong for J. Alfred
Prufrock perhaps.
Then I will crawl into my cozy bed – I swear I’ll actually
wash my face first. Tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day I begin washing my face
before bed, so help me God. I may even put some sort of night cream on my face!
Maybe. Don’t want to set the bar too high…one must always manage one’s expectations
to avoid disappointment and the inevitable downward spiral it invites…
I cannot wait! I’m so excited to just do it ALL right
tomorrow. I would be, perhaps, more confident if this hadn’t been my failed
plan for today, and for countless mounds of yesterdays.
